2016 summed up...

So the year started out pretty normal.. I was still employed by Henda and my friendship had become more like close family with Chanè. We had different staff though but we pushed as much as we could but in March (my 4th year with the company) - the shop closed down.

So I tried the "own business" thing with Marlese, but we rented space by a house salon, the owner was a self centered jerk who asked way too much for a sloppy looking room. For 7 months I tried and with the amazing clients I had that followed me, I could just get by.

In the beginning of October I had my very first interview, at dischem montana - I was nervous but hour the job immediately.

The experience was amazing, the people are supportive and I'm really happy with what I have.

My year wasn't so bad, I mean I was very tired and I got my car and bike learners license again. We got a 5th cat (September) and a dog called Tyson (varkhond)

Granny and Oupa are here from Durban and for my birthday... Well.. It was a disappointed.. 25 is like a halfway point.. Ivan fought with dad and then mom and then aunty Sonya and I even had to work.. And with a disappointing birthday, my Christmas was just as bad.
I don't want tons of expensive gifts, bit I don't want to see everyone else getting a gift that was thoughtful..
I got a mixer..

But I wanted my moms handed down to me, to say "my mom used to use this" as I attempt to bake... If I even bake, which I doubt but its the thought.. I bought my own gifts that I wanted, but for my dad to buy my mom a watch and ring set that just looks pretty (she doesn't need it because she has so many that he bought randomly throughout the year) and Ivan that got another fancy watch (it's his 5th but its expensive watches with tons of features that he also got randomly through the year) I got earings from my dad last year and this year they got me work pants, socks and underwear (size XL, like what? Oh my glob, I'm not that big, I have Mediums not friggen tents) .... Basically I feel excluded, but I don't want fancy watches and rings.. I want the thought.. 

My dad bought my brother a grey dwarf rabbit and before he drove off he thought the rabbit needs a friend and I might like one... Like.. What, do you even know me? I'd love a thousands of them... But to be a second thought... 

All my dad says every time someone else gets something is 'I wanted to get you something but I don't know what to get you"

Its because I want the simple things in life that I feel ive missed... Or things i never had....... But the basics mostly, like love, laughted , memories, affection, attention.. I don't want to be told I'm fat.. Or my hair is messy or my skin looks bad.. . ..

Well.. Anyway... 

Merry Christmas...

And heres to a happy new year..

some time after the funeral until now 12 June 2014

So yes, its been some time.. In the past few months I went on holiday to Mozambique with the family my JellyBean, my best is Jc and boeta Hen3 with Lali... And it was such a blast!

But also we said bye to Nana & Oupie. I think it formed some sort of closure to spread their ashes into the ocean.. Knowing that they will be everywhere..

We went out one night and my dad had the floor, fave such a lovely speech.. And we all assisted in scattering them in to the water.. We then started to light a lantern and sing songs we remembered they liked....

And I have been back at work since then...

This Saturday I'll be attending a bridal kitchen tea... A lot of the people I know are getting engaged now, think it's just this weather.. I'm happy for them though! Happy that they are happy and have so much joy in their lives now.. But its not for me just yet.. I believe that marriage isn't a fairytale we all think it is.

So my fuzzy Shauny and his waifu Willa were here a few weeks ago from London. Was so good to see them! 

And my sis had number 4 - yay! Little Cobain. And CareBear is in New Zealand.. 

So yeah... That's me updated.. 

                       

                                                        I am content!

Post 12 14Aug-11Feb 2014

So yes.. To be honest... I''ve gone through a rough patch..

I lost my Nana.. after the relaps her organs failed and she never made it. Aunty Tanya & Uncle Anton are fighting with the rest of us.. But i'm not interested in adults being childish.. I got to see Nana before she left in a rather good condition.. My mom and Aunty Sonya - not so much, she had all these machines on her and passed away while they were there praying for her.

FAMILY ON OUPIE AND NANA'S SIDE

ME AND AMY AND DALWIN

The table for the ceremony we held, nana had to be cremated..

How sad I've been feeling is because family should always stick together but my cousins are being messed up now..

The new shop is rather nice, the hair is interesting but its all new staff except me..


Steiner didn't work out.. Some people turned around and said no, its like slave work, dont want you to go.. So i prayed and cried a lot to find some direction..
And so something crawled up my leg, an idea my cousin gave me, she stays in Ohio US, and if i can get work, i can maybe go over there and work, and hopefully travel as well. So i'm going to continue with the planning and if its meant to be, i'll be seeing my cousins soon.

I just miss my family a lot - i guess,. because i have been rather blou.. i miss my old friends.. and i am just tired..

My mum had a breast reduction on my 22nd birthday and im so tired, i have to bathe her and dress her wounds nightly, and i feel like i dont get to have "fun" anymore..

I also found another cat so now i have 5 of those..

So meet Kitty Glitter - She's the only white one we have....

These are my other babies:
Minuke                                                              

oorkies

Ginger      

Mr Fluffy Pants



                                         

But i must say - if it wasnt for only a few people i see often, i think i would have gone totally and completely bonkers...

I AM CONTENT

Post 11; 26 July - 12 Aug

So my Nana was sent to rehab and now as i type this she is undergoing an operation again for bleeding on the brain.. Back to the start.....

Placecol is now merged with nail and beauty clinic so im no longer placecol hey, its all good though, its change and im ready for the new challenges.

And that is the few weeks of my life summed up - i have been just working, nothing new and interesting has happened.. im just going on.

I get complements and honestly don't feel like that's me. maybe i don't see what the other people see?
Maybe i just over analyzing things....

I am content.

Post 10; 10 July - 26th July

So nothing new has happened!

My gran has finally been moved out of ICU and is commensing with physio and rehab.. She apparently brushed her own hair the other day.. So there is at least some good news..

I really want to go over seas and work.... But i'll see what happens.. 

Would be great to see family..

Oh well, short and sweet! Till next time!!

Post 9 ; 21 June - 9 July 2013

And so time goes on, and waits for no man....

So on the 1st - 4th July I went down to Durban with my Dad, bro & uncle... 

We went to check on my gran, the gran i told you about who had the srtoke almost 2months ago.. 

My dad says that sh's doing much better because she's awake and moving, also she tries to talk. I feel like crying now as I am typing this... 

She had pressed my hand to her face and i held her face up, she looked so helpless and i just hope she gets better soon.. 

My uncle managed to take a few photos of what she looks like now...

Here are some Durban pics we took because ofcourse ICU has strict visiting hours and we needed to waste time:

Me and my other gran

 

                     My brother


Me

my dad, bro & uncle

me & my dad            

my bro
- painting my toe nails for me

me and my bro at the beach











Me, Jellybean & JC had coffee together the other night,  was really fun. I guess life just gets so crazy busy that we dont do it any more, like hanging out with other people.... oh well.....

this Sunday i'm spending it with Neya & Jellybean, gosh I cant wait!!

Other than that, nothing new is happening, i just miss a few people but i'll survive!
I just want to be alone but when i'm alone i feel down.. So i don't want to be alone.. I miss specific friends who i could talk to... And every time i greet (social networking) i get ignored....

i'm actually feeling a bit down today though.............................


       Negativity is just another way to get through something that's happening on your life... 
             And i do find beauty in it


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post 8: 6th June - 20 june 2013

Not a lot has happened in these few weeks, but oh man, have these few weeks been the longest!

The sister who is taking care of my Nana says that she is slowly getting much better and recovery signs look good!
planning to go down in july to go see her! will be great to break away!

So today is a pretty sad day. My dad's work colleague lost his mother this morning after she had turned 103 years old about a week or two ago

May you rest in peace and in no pain - guarding us from up there! I never got to say happy birthday to her, i was working that saturday but i do hope she knows i wish her only the best.... Mum said she asked where i was "jou pragtige dogter met die krul hare" I wish i had gone to her birthday party........

With love in my heart, nothing can hurt more that it being cut out by the hand that put it there!

I am content with my life