Post 11; 26 July - 12 Aug

So my Nana was sent to rehab and now as i type this she is undergoing an operation again for bleeding on the brain.. Back to the start.....

Placecol is now merged with nail and beauty clinic so im no longer placecol hey, its all good though, its change and im ready for the new challenges.

And that is the few weeks of my life summed up - i have been just working, nothing new and interesting has happened.. im just going on.

I get complements and honestly don't feel like that's me. maybe i don't see what the other people see?
Maybe i just over analyzing things....

I am content.

Post 10; 10 July - 26th July

So nothing new has happened!

My gran has finally been moved out of ICU and is commensing with physio and rehab.. She apparently brushed her own hair the other day.. So there is at least some good news..

I really want to go over seas and work.... But i'll see what happens.. 

Would be great to see family..

Oh well, short and sweet! Till next time!!

Post 9 ; 21 June - 9 July 2013

And so time goes on, and waits for no man....

So on the 1st - 4th July I went down to Durban with my Dad, bro & uncle... 

We went to check on my gran, the gran i told you about who had the srtoke almost 2months ago.. 

My dad says that sh's doing much better because she's awake and moving, also she tries to talk. I feel like crying now as I am typing this... 

She had pressed my hand to her face and i held her face up, she looked so helpless and i just hope she gets better soon.. 

My uncle managed to take a few photos of what she looks like now...

Here are some Durban pics we took because ofcourse ICU has strict visiting hours and we needed to waste time:

Me and my other gran

 

                     My brother


Me

my dad, bro & uncle

me & my dad            

my bro
- painting my toe nails for me

me and my bro at the beach











Me, Jellybean & JC had coffee together the other night,  was really fun. I guess life just gets so crazy busy that we dont do it any more, like hanging out with other people.... oh well.....

this Sunday i'm spending it with Neya & Jellybean, gosh I cant wait!!

Other than that, nothing new is happening, i just miss a few people but i'll survive!
I just want to be alone but when i'm alone i feel down.. So i don't want to be alone.. I miss specific friends who i could talk to... And every time i greet (social networking) i get ignored....

i'm actually feeling a bit down today though.............................


       Negativity is just another way to get through something that's happening on your life... 
             And i do find beauty in it


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post 8: 6th June - 20 june 2013

Not a lot has happened in these few weeks, but oh man, have these few weeks been the longest!

The sister who is taking care of my Nana says that she is slowly getting much better and recovery signs look good!
planning to go down in july to go see her! will be great to break away!

So today is a pretty sad day. My dad's work colleague lost his mother this morning after she had turned 103 years old about a week or two ago

May you rest in peace and in no pain - guarding us from up there! I never got to say happy birthday to her, i was working that saturday but i do hope she knows i wish her only the best.... Mum said she asked where i was "jou pragtige dogter met die krul hare" I wish i had gone to her birthday party........

With love in my heart, nothing can hurt more that it being cut out by the hand that put it there!

I am content with my life

post 7; 25th may - 5th june '13

These are some photo's from my kuier:

 

 

 

So my nana had a stroke a few blogs away, and there has been news on that she is  looking better, in about 2weeks i will be going down with family to see her... She had an emergancy opp for bleeding on the brain and they did another opp to remove the dead skin around the wound because it was dead skin and it could become infected. Mum and dad went down to see her for a few days, i think it may have been hard on my dad - even though he's a grown up and a dad himself, he lost his dad, and his mum is all he has left. To see her suffer and to see how pathetically the family is acting, i'd think it emotionally hurts....

Me and my nana:

Yesterday was Oupie and uncke markies day, its easier now, but nana's also in the hospital so it was a bit hard... i spent yesterday with 2 good friends, who kept my mind occupied and  i didnt have time to mourn.


 My Friend Jade                                             
My friend JC




    But this morning was great, uncle markies daughter Michelle, who i have not yet met and I are talking, i have sent her messages before but now its just so great, i feel all warm and fuzzy inside, so happy! I just want to meet her! And i want to share stories and look at photo's ^_^

This is a photo of her, Pretty huh!? I cant seem to get ahold of her brother but so far this bonding happening is brightening up my day :)

post 6: 10th May - 24th May 2013

So I must say that this month is awfully long! But non the less, i am enjoying my life.. or trying to..

for example..

tonight i'm hosting another kuier at my place, will add photos on the next post^_^

Last week Placecol launched a new product on their shelves, we attended the launch and it was so well done! i enjoyed learning about this new product!

Im using it and im actually enjoying the effects it has on my skin, the evening tone and reduction in frown lines.. the price is a hard knock but i cant deny that its worth it! i'm living off samples hehe

post 5 ; April 4th - May 9th 2013

so its been pretty long since my last post, and again nothing new has been happening.

I still haven't gone for any driving classes after successfully getting my learners at last.

On the 17th of April is a school acquaintance's birthday and the Saturday night before it i had realized that being nice has got limits and i just don't seem to follow them .. i have been a shoulder, waiting, just because i figured that one day she will fall so low and i would just stick my hand out and help her up, i have never called her a friend or "bestie" in ages and not even to her face - i was just polite. And on the night of her birthday party thing (the saturday) she insulted someone who is my friend, and with this irritation i told  the friend of mine and with that she phoned me and announced she no longer wants me in her life, so i thanked her for letting me go. as a result another person who i really thought was my friend, my "bestie" turned out to have been my friend but i was her  acquaintance, even though she would call me her "bestie" and that was what a real 2faced person does, but she instead called me a 2faced person, strange how that turned  out hmmm?

But Sune has always been there no matter how far apart -  she is my bestie and i love her lots, she says the same and i do believe her, my heart does, my brain is just scared that she will turn around and zap me and walk off... but at the same time it doesn't...
            see yesterday i woke up with the worst news i have heard in ages - that her mom has passed away. it felt so unreal, like i was still having a horrid dream that i couldn't wake up from even though i was partially awake..
 i just wanted to be with her the whole day, i still do today... i want her to not feel alone, and she probably does, she probably has this abyss that keeps deepening in her chest, i want to be there to stop i from aching as much...

i kept singing a song today... and i just realized a second ago why - that i should light up the hollow she's feeling right now..

"this little light of mine.. I'm gonna let it shine, let it shine, let it shine, let it shine!"

The past weekend Sune had gone to visit her mom, i had chatted to her and she informed me that she wasn't doing too good, i had gotton a cute image that Wednesday morning i was going to put on her facebook wall and wish her a lovely day.. And then it hit me, I had been so busy i had forgotten and missed my opportunity with 9 hours..  time is short. time is valuable.. if you have something to say - do it now because tomorrow might just be too late... She wrote me a letter once, where she had thanked me for being such a good person to Sune, that she was thankful.. and she added something extra because during that time i only had Sune and Sune only had me, we were fighting with Monique & Tanya.. she wrote:
"People do to you only what you let them" ... "See yourself in Gods eyes"
She now see's us all with him by her side..

I'm also a bit under the weather, sore throat and runny nose... but i still love the winter!

                                                           I am happy... I am content

oh, how i miss the people i call friends, wish i could see you guys and hug you guys again.....

post4; 4 feb-3 april 2013

so it has been awfully long since my last blog, but sadly nothing really fantastic has happened..

oh except i did get my learners license today... and soon i will be going for classes.. better late than never hey..

things have become, more real..
sounds stupid because nothing was fake to begin with but this strange realization is taking a slow effect, but I'm not totally sure what it is that i am feeling..

i really want to write that darn book though, but there isn't a proper plot, story line, dialog set.. its frustrating, every time i read through what i already wrote, i want to change it - but i have my patience, maybe i'll forget about that dream, there's so much more i suppose.

oh, like I'm planning on studying again.. to be do counselling.. to those who know me - I'm not going for it, i want to do it :P

but other than this i have just been working, a zombie to life.. i miss so many friends.. well, they are friends to  me but i suppose to them i am nothing but an acquaintance... nothing more insulting than missing someone who doesnt miss you...

i wish people never kept secrets from me, i could have made myself a tad bit stronger....

any way... I'm off.. until my next blog, stay amazing :)

post3: 28Jan- 4Feb

So during these few days;

 I spent lunch with Jade on friday, it was really lovely! to actually have a lunch and to do something! Jade has always been a good friend to me, and getting to actually hang out - I think this friendship is really blossoming! I feel like she knows what i actually feel and the things she sais, the advice she gives makes sense!

I had the weekend off, which was fantastic! i got to see my cuz and her son again after so many long years! I miss them still now even after seeing them! I watched a movie with Jellybean, Hotel Transylvania. An excellent movie! though nothing beats a Tim Burton film!

Sunday, i got pretty angry, and annoyed, a family friend came over, brings his entire family but nothing to eat or drink and they even came prepaired to swim... There is no etiquette with these people is there? If they visit unannounced again - i will show them the same rude and unmannered courtesy that they always show us!

Today is a special girls birthday - Lulu, She turned 18, I hope that she stays pure and reciaves all the blessings she deserves!
And tomorrow is Jean-dre's birthday! My dear friend i hope you have a blessed day and that everything stays as fortunate as it is!
These 2 peole are truly blessed <3

Since Sunday, i am on this 13 Day Diet - i have started a blog about it to keep track of how i feel and to also help in quiding those who also want to try this "metabolism fixing diet"
With all the negative things my family says about me being overweight, I think i would rather do diets to keep my hopes up - if i didnt do these diets, i would be hopeless. And the hopeless tend to want to stop living and i  believe that there is so much more to life and that there is so much to still achieve. The people brining me down, I feel sorry for them - their lives are hollow, so they want me to feel the same.

I am ready for the challenges the Lord has left on my path!

post 2; 17Jan-27Jan

So i was supposed to be off today but my boss asked me to help out at their other shop because only Tanya was working, so i must say i feeling tired, at least i have next weekend off.. But i don't like going there, i don't think I'll be going there again, i just don't feel comfortable and its the truth and the truth hurts i suppose.. I learnt that the hard way..

So so far nothing fun has been happening, was very ill on Wednesday through to yesterday - I'm better now.

I finished Assassins Creed Brotherhood, now i just have to get Revolations. But by the time I do - Bio-Shock 3 will probably be out unless i act soooon..

I haven't read much, but that's because of all the books I do have. Its so much..

Jellybeans mum found this 13Day Diet.. I'll be keeping tabs on my progress on here - and even there after..

And in a few days I'm calling the driving school and I'm gonna get my learners!

        That's all happening in my crazy world :)

Post 1; 1Jan-17Jan '13

So this new year has started off pretty different. New years wasn't with the usual family. I spent it with my friends who are practically family.
Found out some hectic stuff but i mean, if that's the time to get out of the closet then do so. I'm here to listen, and i am pretty damn sure that's a part of my purpose in life.

"Here is the test to see whether you have completed your life goal. If you're alive, you haven't"

Work is still the same, I like meeting all these different people and love working with my colleges  Florence is actually pregnant (the one girl who works with me) and all i want to do is rub her tummy and feel little Kuda kick her insides around :P

BUT i have decided that at the end of this month I am investing in my drivers learners & licence! To then, when I get it, (i would have been saving money) to save more money and go study at UNISA for my bachelors is psychology  I met one of HOD and he's helping me out with sorting the things I need.

It wont be easy, and it wont come cheap - but if I want it so bad, I'll push to have it!

                                                      

My niece Taylor is 9, so I've started getting her books to read. I want her to find passion in creating her own world and to be creative. and its rubbing off on Colby, her 7 year old sister. I even got Tankian, their 3 year old brother a book so that he con start, but I know he's young but I'm sure that Taylor will help him out.

Ivan and my dad are upsetting me though. Because I bought a scooter and now Ivan wants to sell it to use the money to buy a bike. Of which he did not earn - he expects everything and is persistent  I suppose that's good but not fair to me. I worked hard to earn the money and though long and hard to by the scooter - and I am not going to let him sell it and then keep my money.

    I don't think I'm the wrong person here!?

 I put he writing on the pictures myself :)



ooooooooooh i cannot forget the most o.m.w moment that happened!!!
-Well, as you know i am a beauty therapist and the one day i was going to get the paraffin wax pot out of the other cubicle to my cubicle for my clients pedicure. when my sleeve hooks on the the part of a door lock that is in the wall. my hand ricocheted into the wall, my fingers opened up and "WOOOOOOOOOSH" all on the floor, my clothes were ruined. I must say, people dont exaggerate about the whole "slo-mo" thing, and the freezing when the impact takes place - i cant begin to explain how mortified i was... But I'm over it now, its still pretty funny.. or not ha ha funny but a strange, why, type of funny.......


                   STORY OF MY LIFE....